just now's dinner was scary man. There's this indian hitting the other indian's head with a helmet. Then it has this "pok pok pok' sound. And they were heading near us and we ran away with out food xD. found a table that is very far from them and continued eating. The fight is so sudden lorh. They were beside our table. Then suddenly one of them stood up and started banging his helmet at the other person. what kind of world. tsk..

it's hard to stop the tears once you lose the power that controls yourself. I don't know if I am insensitive to my feelings or I don't dare to think of it. I guessed I stretched myself too much and cracks are now revealing. No matter how much water you put the crack is still there. why do I sound like a lump of dried up clay? never mind. I feel like a shen jing bing cause tears will start streaming because of small things. like, thinking about the kindergarten life and realise that is ten years ago. I don't know. that is quite abnormal I guess. Then about the game. why? can't you all give more constructive comments and suggest how to improve the game and not telling us to cancel the game because it is not good, which they think their game is. They said it's more of a mental game and they think they are pieces of the leader and they are not participating in the game. The point of the game is to let them know how everyone must work with the leader are else nothing can be done. Obviously they did not catch the point. I am not sure they will ever catch that. I guess people has their limits when it comes to understanding so I don't blame them. hmm. So I tried to be patient and ask them how can we improve. you know what they said. WTH they said "you can't improve it. it's not even a leadership game. the only thing you can do is to cancel it." fine that's not up to me. And obviously wang laoshi wants us to write down the comments and improve on the game. So how are we going to improve the game? Cancel it. wang laoshi said "No." So? What? I don't know. And I am not going to care about it. Oh and they claim that it's very hot and dizzy because their eyes are covered. You know why? Because Kah mun told them to bring blindfolds to school and I don't know what they are up to. trying to be funny? they used PE shirts and jackets to cover their eyes. If I was one of them I would probably faint or something. I sometimes doubt that if people has common sense. But I know we had to improve of some places. Like giving clearer instructions, be organised ourselves. which is quite impossible. It's so obvious that 210 people of our group are not cooperating. except for one. I realise they scold their friends stupid when they were in other discussions and not with them. Which I think, is no good. I don't care who you are. CCA mates?Hmm. The problem is 205 is not interacting with 210. Serious problem. The whole proposal was written by me and kah mun. The only thing the other class gave was. This tiny piece of paper. The first proposal that was written by them was like. The piece of paper stapled to the proposal. And NOTHING ELSE EXCEPT FOR THE NAMES. So. We squeezed everything out of our brain. And out came this proposal. And this is the result. I don't know. Maybe we are stupid and they(people who gave us those comments?) are much cleverer. Maybe we have different understandings of leadership.( actually I am sure we have. They actually thinks that running around shouting all the way is the need to show leadership. Why? the point is, like what I have mentioned just now. Other people have to cooperate with the leader. Which means you need to believe in the leader and follows the instructions clearly. Whatever. It makes me sad and dissapointed and angry when I think of this. It is just hard to communicate with different people from different backgrounds and different characters. Should I just ignore them? I don't have the energy to deal with them. Maybe I should hide away. Hmm. Good choice. But no, I won't do that. I would probably end up unhappy again but I will face them. Hmm that sounds braver. Anyway.

BLAH. Thank you joyjoy :) Ahh. I shall sleep and not think of these things. There are so many happy things in our lifes and we always dwells on the few sad things. So I shall dream about happy things. And blog about my happy dreams and happy things the next post.

haizzzzz. having math now. And I don't understand a thing he said. just emo-ed just now. :/ feel so shi bai can. Shall elaborate next time. too stressed I think. Need to tell my dad to teach me the graph thing. Okay. it's recess.

Pictures when I was around six xD

New Year!!! DONG DONG QIANG!

Haha hello everyone!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!\

hello again. Yes I am normal enough to talk now :D

HAHA I am back at home now :D So happy! And I took loads of photos haha.

And I found the old pictures of me. haha Saw myself 自拍 when I was six xD. .No wonder I don't fancy that now, I actually find it a bit weird. And I was so skinny (which means normal to you all as my point of view is quite different HAHA) when I was seven and eight. haa and I blew up like a ball like what I am now, isn't too good. Hmm. *feeling guilty for eating so much just now*



Anyways I always find the shampoo at home nicer, the air fresher well everything better. Though, I can't say that the boarding school is not nice, it's quite comfortable actually, QUITE. But I still prefer home, which I believe everyone will think so.

Okay shall spend more time with my family so bye byeeeeee. =D

Ahhhhh. SO much homework D:
math written task
math CDWS AL2
math textbook
LA essay
Geog workbook and workheet
drama journal
december holiday essay
chinese sia
yue du bao gao

Tomorrow we are going to do the functional writing. hmm. Shall continue to focus on the LOAD of homework. :X BLEH BLEH BLEH
BLEHHHHHHHHHH