Woo. Band finally resumed today. The moment I stepped into the band room, them moment we played the first tuning note, all the feelings just came back. It didn't feel like we didn't play together for more than 5 weeks, it felt as if we were born together, it just feels so nice to be back with the band. It's refreshing, it's heartwarming to see all your friends, friends that went through so many things with me, friends that spent so much time together, with me. And the power of music, is just so great. Even simple things like a scale, I can hear enthusiasm. Though there's one thing. Okay I realle need more practice, I wasn't even able to play one long-note-scale properly. Seriously my mouth was leaking ._. But generally it just feels good to play as a band again. It's good that I survived PE! It's quite amusing. To do the agility training.
Motivation of the day: BAND AFTER SCHOOL!
It even made Physics bearable. Although I did close my eyes for a few seconds( and wake up finding mrs. Wong glaring at me) I fell asleep when I was trying to draw the dotted lines.
Why some people just have to suffer so much more compared to people of their age? When lost her when she needed her the most, I wonder how she moved on. Or did she just cover up her real feelings. If I didn't see the url, I am still oblivious to what she's gone through.
God, I feel guilty, for complaining so much about such insignificant things, and forgetting how others had to swallow heartbreaking, irreversible facts. Even friends around us, as we took for granted that everyone's as lucky as we are. You will never know what she's gone through, if she didn't tell you.
I can't help her, I guess she doesn't want to show her emotions. All I can do is to sincerely hope that she can live happily, and keep her memories.
I can almost feel the pain, it's so near. Yet so far. I really don't want to think about it, how will I react if that happens to me? I really don't want to think about it.
I appreciate what I have now, although my family's not with me, I know they will be there for me, no matter what. I am so glad I have them. Thank god, for blessing me with a complete, healthy family. Really, thanks.
No, I don't really have a religion. I am open to all.
Grateful.
I should go back to my room, for temperature taking. Hope he/she haven't arrived yet. Btw, xiaonan's quarantined, for some reason. Hope she'll stay healthy.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Reflecting on a very serious incident
I just went to the music room just now, and when I went to the office to return the keys I encountered something very serious that require me to reflect on my own behavior, which is what I am doing now. I am not going to reveal her name, because this is an individual reflection, and there’s nothing to do with the person concerned, it’s all my fault.
So, everyone was working in the office, and after I signed in on the music room book, I politely said ‘excuse me’ with a smile, to get a staff’s attention so that I can return the keys. Well yes I got a staff’s attention, and so I continued “Can I exchange the music room key for my keys?” The boarding school system is this; we have to give them our room keys to change for the music room keys or facilities, so I was trying to get my room keys back. Anyway, so the staff took a look at me, and maybe I am just too ugly, because apparently she thinks “Excuse me” is not nice enough and she said “Good afternoon, not excuse me. Yes?” I immediately realized my mistake, my mistake, and said ‘Sorry, good afternoon. May I have my keys back?’ And indeed I had my keys back and here I am, trying to figure out what is wrong the word “Excuse me.”
I am very disturbed by what the staff said to me, to the extent that I went to look up the dictionary, the big fat one to ensure accuracy, for the term “Excuse me”. The phrase can be found in the 7th edition of Oxford Advanced Learner’s Dictionary (International student’s edition), first column of page 508. It explains:
IDM ex’cuse me
1. used to politely get somebody’s attention, especially somebody you do not know: (example)
2. used to politely ask somebody to move so that you can get past them: (example)
3. used to say that you are sorry for interrupting somebody or behaving in a slightly rude way: (example)
To prevent myself from being sued by the dictionary company, I only extracted this part of it, and honest to God, nothing under ‘excuse me’ conflicts with the above three explanations.
Now I reflect on what I did, the reason for the word choice. I chose this phrase because I wanted to (1) get her attention politely. (2) Apologize for interrupting her work.
Despite the fact that I was unable to understand why, I learnt that I must not say “excuse me” when I want to (1) and (2) as stated in the paragraph above. I also learnt from this incident that, “Good afternoon” can also serve the purpose of (1) and (2). Ironically the definition of "Good afternoon" in the dictionary did not mention anything about apologizing for interrupting, nor did it mention anything about grabbing attention. The only use for the phrase is 'to say hello politely when you first see each other in the afternoon'.
I am not being sarcastic, I just reflected and thought hard about it. And it’s a horrifying realization! I couldn’t understand what I did wrong. Had I been confused and lost the ability to tell right from wrong? Can anyone enlighten me? I would appreciate your help. Thanks.
Mood: Reflective.
So, everyone was working in the office, and after I signed in on the music room book, I politely said ‘excuse me’ with a smile, to get a staff’s attention so that I can return the keys. Well yes I got a staff’s attention, and so I continued “Can I exchange the music room key for my keys?” The boarding school system is this; we have to give them our room keys to change for the music room keys or facilities, so I was trying to get my room keys back. Anyway, so the staff took a look at me, and maybe I am just too ugly, because apparently she thinks “Excuse me” is not nice enough and she said “Good afternoon, not excuse me. Yes?” I immediately realized my mistake, my mistake, and said ‘Sorry, good afternoon. May I have my keys back?’ And indeed I had my keys back and here I am, trying to figure out what is wrong the word “Excuse me.”
I am very disturbed by what the staff said to me, to the extent that I went to look up the dictionary, the big fat one to ensure accuracy, for the term “Excuse me”. The phrase can be found in the 7th edition of Oxford Advanced Learner’s Dictionary (International student’s edition), first column of page 508. It explains:
IDM ex’cuse me
1. used to politely get somebody’s attention, especially somebody you do not know: (example)
2. used to politely ask somebody to move so that you can get past them: (example)
3. used to say that you are sorry for interrupting somebody or behaving in a slightly rude way: (example)
To prevent myself from being sued by the dictionary company, I only extracted this part of it, and honest to God, nothing under ‘excuse me’ conflicts with the above three explanations.
Now I reflect on what I did, the reason for the word choice. I chose this phrase because I wanted to (1) get her attention politely. (2) Apologize for interrupting her work.
Despite the fact that I was unable to understand why, I learnt that I must not say “excuse me” when I want to (1) and (2) as stated in the paragraph above. I also learnt from this incident that, “Good afternoon” can also serve the purpose of (1) and (2). Ironically the definition of "Good afternoon" in the dictionary did not mention anything about apologizing for interrupting, nor did it mention anything about grabbing attention. The only use for the phrase is 'to say hello politely when you first see each other in the afternoon'.
I am not being sarcastic, I just reflected and thought hard about it. And it’s a horrifying realization! I couldn’t understand what I did wrong. Had I been confused and lost the ability to tell right from wrong? Can anyone enlighten me? I would appreciate your help. Thanks.
Mood: Reflective.
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